last night at the bible study that i go to, we talked about specific times when we have felt loved by God. we were not using the cheesy "God's love" phrase that is thrown around like nobody's business. really, a time where we actually felt completely loved by him. well... i couldn't think of a time. yes i know God loves me. but i have been waiting for this spectacular divine feeling. i have settled for just understanding that he loves me but not really taking it as seriously as i should. wow, God loves me. but do i believe it? yeah, i believe it. do i trust him though? have i even opened my eyes enough to experience his love in the way that i should? i am clearly missing the big picture that God loves people in many different ways. a simple sunset can make my day. that's God showing love. a conversation with a friend can make all of the difference and i have God to thank for his oh so convenient timing.
sometimes there is a void in my heart that i try to fill with all sorts of things. and when all of the distractions or temporary comforts are moved aside, i suddenly see the one who has been there all along. the one who created me. the one who loves me so much that he died for me. the one who, although i forget sometimes, wants to make something beautiful out of any mess that i surrender to him. nothing can compare to that.
love you, jenn :)
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